Sleep

...or coping with the strangeness that sometimes comes from engaging in that particular behaviour.

Since my birthday last week I have been suffering/enjoying vivid dreams on an almost nightly basis. Usually violent in nature (and part of the reason for my last post) but sometimes overly sexual.

A couple of them I would classify as lucid dreaming. As soon as I realize I am in an altered state, I remember I can exert control over my actions. Usually the narrative has been pretty straight forward and I feel compelled to follow the plot as I'm expected to, but once and a while it doesn't seem right so I change what's going on (from dodging knives being thrown at me to grabbing the knives and stabbing them into the ground, unfortunately I don't recall who was doing the throwing, but there a long jacket involved on their part... I can't even recall the gender).

There have been times when I have woken up in a startled state.

There have been times when I have woken up in a highly aroused states.

There have been times when I want to stay under the blanket because certain things in the world seem more horrible than they really are. As a direct result of the dream as opposed to the world being a big bad place(tm).

Maybe there is an increase in energy flow recently that is, in part, making me more susceptible to this vivid dreaming.

One more thing, I've really been enjoying the feel of water recently.

A Box

Like last spring, I have this feeling of change coming on. In that case, I was going to be about the violent late spring, summer and autumn that Calgary was going to have. Sadly, it played out.

This time I'm not sure what it relates to. I just feel that there is something big on the horizon, it won't show it's ugly head but its fingers are gripping the edge.

I don't know if it will be personal, familial, friend-family, political or other.

The cold spell that Calgary has a made things very quiet, but with this stillness the few voices that do speak carry over great distances and very clearly.

What I "hear" is that a few of the natives are going into hiding and not just for the winter. I have no idea how to describe the natives, but the local others that most people grow accustomed to feeling around the city.

This is such a vague post, I hate that.

I'm pretty sure that whatever it is won't be sudden (at least to those who are watching). It will be a prolonged build-up and then spill over making the already nervous public more nervous.

Like a cardboard box slowly being folded and taped shut.

Inspired from the movie "Next"

Precognition

Being able to see ahead 2 minutes in time and no more (being able to evaluate the options from making choices).

A strange concept, but to me, believable. Especially if the future is mutable based on our choices. Being able to predict future events and being able to manipulate it to results that you chose instead "being a victim of circumstance".

The trick is paying attention enough to ones environment to notice the options as they open up in front of you.

From my experience, people very rarely stop and think about their options during the course of their day. And when they do, it's usually to determine what type of food to eat or what they'll use to entertain themselves. Those are very short term goals. What happens when you push through that barrier and make choices for later in the day? Is that precognition?

I usually claim it's just paying attention when I can anticipate certain individual actions from other people. Just paying attention to their patterns and making an educated guess based on the available data.

Bigger patterns are tougher to discern for me unless it's blazingly obvious.

Take in as much data as you can get your hands on and basically make a guess at an end result. Of course, with how complex our societies tend to be (and the assorted systems that out societies support), those guesses have a high rate of failure. And it's tough enough to plan for the next one when you cannot pick out the major force that influenced the last result. Minor influences cannot be discounted either (because these tend to influence people towards the major force and tip that cup over into a result).

So where does that leave us?

As confused as always.

Anyone up for a discussion?

The Triangle (movie)

Last Tuesday, Space started to broadcast the three part series The Triangle. It had been something I had meant to see back in 2005 when it originally aired.

In part because of Catherine Bell, Eric Stoltz, Sam Neill (actors I enjoy watching) and in part because I was intrigued by the director, Bryan Singer (the first two X-Men movies).

While I have had a passing interesting in the Bermuda Triangle over the years, it has never really held a long term focus for me. I guess I find it a bit too... subjective ...and I figure that things yet lost all off the time in the ocean. What brings me back around to the triangle on occasion is that I find it intriguing that there is one specific area that ships, boats and planes (and the people that go with them) seem to disappear and that there is radar logs that seem to back them up.

I do remember vividly back in grade eight, that my science teacher has cut outs from the National Enquirer regarding Flight 19. I remember staring at it and just wondering.

Maybe I was bored in that class.

But anyways...

While watching this mini series, it is postulated that maybe the triangle is a home to wormholes and other dimensions.

Other dimensions are strange to me.

Intellectually I can see them having a purpose in the universe (at least mathematically). But I seem to have a problem believing the casual interaction between the dimension I inhabit and other ones. I suppose that's one reason why they call it exotic.

This leads me to think about where I consider other beasties to come from and what the Mayan's meant by spiritual transformation in 2012. I'm pretty sure that time (as I understand it) will always continue forward in a linear manner (or more accurately that we will continue to measure it going forward because we like to impose some sense of order to the universe, even if we aren't 100% sure that the way we're doing it is correct).

Back to beasties. I suspect that they are still from "our" dimension. Why can't we detect them with our usual five senses? Hell if I know, I'm just "happy" that I get a feeling of "them" once and while and make some sort of interpretation of it without being too "mad" in the process.

For some reason, I'm feeling more apprehensive about Dec. 21st 2012 more than I have about other dates. It seems useless to plan that far ahead, but maybe I'm just feeling nervous about the future in general given what's going on. I still hope to pull off an end of the world / birthday party that year.

I am at odds with something more personal though.

I'm having a very tough time accepting what I seem to do on a regular basis (observe and predict) and how I should feel about it. I could just be lucky.

Weird incidents in Calgary: January (part one)

Part the on-going strangeness going on in Calgary. This just part one and will be edited again once I find links to the proper news articles regarding them.

Suspicious Death 1900 block 49 Avenue SW (update)
SERIOUS PEDESTRIAN TRAFFIC COLLISION
Assault with a Weapon
Police vehicle collision at 14 St x 12 Ave SW
HOME INVASION TYPE ROBBERY - BRAESIDE
Driver of motorcycle in critical condition
HOME INVASION TYPE OF ROBBERY - 2008 JANUARY 5
SEEKING PUBLIC ASSISTANCE (update)
Pedestrian / C-Train collision
SUSPICIOUS DEATH (update)
Airport Incident, Emergency call at Calgary Airport (Update on Incident at Calgary Airport, Update to Airport Emergency Response)
SUSPICIOUS DEATH