Sleep

...or coping with the strangeness that sometimes comes from engaging in that particular behaviour.

Since my birthday last week I have been suffering/enjoying vivid dreams on an almost nightly basis. Usually violent in nature (and part of the reason for my last post) but sometimes overly sexual.

A couple of them I would classify as lucid dreaming. As soon as I realize I am in an altered state, I remember I can exert control over my actions. Usually the narrative has been pretty straight forward and I feel compelled to follow the plot as I'm expected to, but once and a while it doesn't seem right so I change what's going on (from dodging knives being thrown at me to grabbing the knives and stabbing them into the ground, unfortunately I don't recall who was doing the throwing, but there a long jacket involved on their part... I can't even recall the gender).

There have been times when I have woken up in a startled state.

There have been times when I have woken up in a highly aroused states.

There have been times when I want to stay under the blanket because certain things in the world seem more horrible than they really are. As a direct result of the dream as opposed to the world being a big bad place(tm).

Maybe there is an increase in energy flow recently that is, in part, making me more susceptible to this vivid dreaming.

One more thing, I've really been enjoying the feel of water recently.

A Box

Like last spring, I have this feeling of change coming on. In that case, I was going to be about the violent late spring, summer and autumn that Calgary was going to have. Sadly, it played out.

This time I'm not sure what it relates to. I just feel that there is something big on the horizon, it won't show it's ugly head but its fingers are gripping the edge.

I don't know if it will be personal, familial, friend-family, political or other.

The cold spell that Calgary has a made things very quiet, but with this stillness the few voices that do speak carry over great distances and very clearly.

What I "hear" is that a few of the natives are going into hiding and not just for the winter. I have no idea how to describe the natives, but the local others that most people grow accustomed to feeling around the city.

This is such a vague post, I hate that.

I'm pretty sure that whatever it is won't be sudden (at least to those who are watching). It will be a prolonged build-up and then spill over making the already nervous public more nervous.

Like a cardboard box slowly being folded and taped shut.